Saturday, June 12, 2010

britney



britney my step sister got H1N1 positive.........lately she got puke out and bad fever just like LOUIE......but LUOIE is just a normal fever.........but now britney........no no NOOOOO god please save her dont take her from me im begging you god.........u took my mom now britney NO!!!!!!she didnt guilty at all.....she got no any sin............im sorry for making you mad all this time GOD......DONT take this lil baby im begging you.............shes mine!!!!!!!!!!!1i love her than anyone else god........................please..dont take her......1st i dont like them but now they stole my heart and i love them so much....they're my LOVE in my heart............please got save them

Friday, June 11, 2010

back off

i made my FACEBOOK and find friend at MALAYSIA just because i wanna go back to where i came from..........islam..i wanna know islam.........but when i found buddies and we're became a bestie........some people get mad...........its doesnt matter..........mom....i need you mum...i need you so much ...................

Sunday, June 6, 2010

fuckin bored

im so fuckin bored when my PC didnt get work.......its all because of my fault cause i crush it because im in the bad mood with dady......im so sorry dad im in the bad mood....cause im under archohol.....i cant control what i said....im sorry okay dad........please forgiv me....i cant help it when i crush my own PC with my own hand and thats so hurt.....i cant help it......i cant stay with you dad......im at decan house.....i will be back if i think my self under control.......im miss mommy....i miss or family....if i had a power i wanna bring mom's back..and happy together like when i was 1 years old(maybe).......i really damn miss mom.....sorry dad....i left you ......but i have had it!!!!

Monday, May 31, 2010

he win the case

i dont know how my dad win these fuckin case........why........why cant i just stay with them.....first session in court they start to talk bout my mom and that so shit......i can feel my mum is around.....my dad says that he cant let me go with them cause i will suffer by searching money....and work and all that.....to me thats is normal because that is how normal people live!!!!!!!they fight in court and i cant help it........my uncle cant face this too long and my dad keep talk shit bout my uncle infront of the crowd........my uncle says this is about where i came from........so many years i live in christian way..........i need to come back to malaysia so that i can live with muslim's way..........but my dad says thats cant be happen cause this is where i came from..........and this is the way i live........i still remember the words he said......."i giv him all the money and i never stop him to be muslim or christian......i let him do all the things he want and why he must go away just like that to leave me??""""thats the words my dad's say and that is so fuckin shit.........i hate my dad..but i know......he's the only one my family and my blood......then its time for me to get into this......and they ask me a few question......."how did your dad being care for you?" and i said "my dad care for me much"and the other question is personal.........the session stop for a few hours and then continue.....but while we chill my dad and uncle got fight....my uncle got punch on his face......and im the one who stop them......then i can see my dad cryin.......thats really make me understand how he cant let me go away from him..........and i remember he said"i lost your mom and i fail to make her happy and i dont want this happen to you" then i just giv it all to allah.....if i am rite just let me stay with dad........if i am wrong then just let me go........then.....this case win ........and my dad can still got me........im your son ......forever.......

Friday, May 28, 2010

bicara

im so tension righ now.......macam macam hal yang terjadi pada i...............pakcik i call i dan kata dia mahu ambil alih untuk menjaga i.........sebab ayah i tak bertanggung jawab.....dan i akan rosak duduk bersama nya........i tak dapat berkata apa apa kerana i juga mahu balik malaysia.........bersama dekat dengan mama i.........i dont wanna be with you dad...
"dany!what did u told your uncle??!"
"told what?"
"did u say u wanna go malaysia for sure!??"
"no i didnt say that..."
"then why your uncle call me and what the hell he's talking about!"
"talking bout what??"
"listen to me boy!u're not goin anywhere u get it??!!!!!i gave you money and all u need...then what else???..i warning u.....u're not goin anywhere...u belong here!!!!"
So itu lah antara perbualan ku dengan ayah ku yang takut akan kehilangan ku...........fikiran ku sempit.......serabut dan macam macam lagi..............besok tiba lah hari aku di mahkamah dan membicara kan kes ini........aku diperlukan untuk memberi keterangan tentang bagaimana aku dijaga...............
"if you stay in malaysia u got a go work hard to get money!u think its easy?tired did u get that??????when u stay here with me u got money without work!!!i dont want my son get poor in malaysia!you the only mine!!!!did u get that boy?!!!!!"
i am so down bout this case........God,Mom,please come near me.....i need both of you to be strong ........please let me know and the best way to do............

Monday, May 24, 2010

1st of all

hi...my name is dniel robin raziz iskandar....and im 21.i stay in Geneva Switzerland......i am the only one son in my family....my parent divorce since i was a litle....too little to know mean HURT.....my mom died already and i miss her much......i stuck with my dad that being so shit to me....i cant even go back to my home own in malaysia just because of him........i didnt work...study or else....i just stay at home with my dad's money..........my dad married with some gurl name mariah.....and that woman already had a kids already.............now i looks like live with stranger where i think i dont even know them........i miss my mom....i wanna go to her grave rite now.......i wont stay with dady.......i hate him sometime......i already live like a christian way for many years........i wanna learn islam back.......i wanna back to where i came from.........and theres is my friend who help me............i dont hav any gurlfriend.......because i used to hav one but suck!!!!what a life rite????